I caved. I compromised.
As a single woman striving to live according to the Word of God, this unfortunately is a reality I find myself in more times than not. Flirting with sin leads to the date from hell and I quickly lower my standards for a marriage to death.
In those moments, it seems as if the solid rock has suddenly become shaky ground. Panicking to grab control of my ungodly cravings, I give in to what I have convinced myself that I need. And boy, is it satisfying. Why in the world didn’t I do this sooner? Why would the Lord be keeping this from me? He must not want me to be truly happy.
This feeling of eternal satisfaction is now…over. Conviction strikes. And I’m left in my disappointment to pick up the pieces of my brokenness. I crawl back to the cross and cry out for mercy, only to find myself in the same predicament soon again.
How many times do we do this with the Lord in different aspects of our lives? We read His Word daily, hide it in our hearts, meditate night and day and know His standards. We know the sacrifice this walk requires. We talk about the daily struggles in community. We emphasize the escape He promises and yet we find ourselves caving in and compromising to fleeting lusts.
Why are you doing this? A question I always ask in hindsight. Here are three reasons I find to be true.
1. We don’t truly believe that God is enough.
God promises to be our everything. If we truly believe that, we cannot let our actions suggest that something else, that is outside of the boundaries that God has ordained, can be anything but fleeting. The allure of sin over promises and under delivers, appearing to be everything we need. However, we must not lose sight of the fact that God is enough. And nothing will ever change that.
2. We tend to abuse grace.
I’m human. I have needs. God is still working on me. The Lord knows my heart. These excuses lead to our destruction.
“What shall we say then? Are we to continue in sin that grace might increase? May it never be! How shall we who died to sin still live in it?” Romans 6: 1-2
Accepting Christ as Savior means that I am free from the bondage of sin and have the freedom to walk in righteous. Knowing that God extends grace to His children cannot justify our sin.
3. We are relying on our own strength.
One of the great things about the faith walk is that the almighty God who created the heavens and the earth, left us a Helper so that we may walk in a manner worthy of the call. When a compromising situation comes, are we communing with the Holy Spirit that dwells within to conquer the desire? We will fail every time unless we rely on the one who has already overcome sin.
Let’s be real here, the narrow road is tough and difficult, but it is not impossible. God has given us the tools we need to avoid passing satisfaction so that we can fix our eyes on the eternal fulfillment that only He can provide.